...all my life, I am searching for the missing piece of my soul, I had been to places trying to find the missing particle of me... how I couldn't see that all the answers to all my queries pointed straight to you... and indeed, you are the other half that makes me whole...

Monday, November 15, 2010

Kuya's Utol

Blood is thicker than water. Yah, they’re right! But for me, it is not all the times. Sometimes, water is as thick as blood. Confused with my simile? Believe me!

When I was a little tyke, I always wanted to have younger brother. Someone who I can share all my pains, my thoughts, my dreams, my angst, my loneliness and my happiness. Someone who I can buy a cone of ice cream or a bar of chocolate. Someone who will call me kuya not because I am older but because of the attachment that we both shared. I’ve waited for a very long time but my family situation doesn't permitted me to have one. It was a disappointment for me.

But it was recently when something happened to me. Someone had crossed my path and changed my life. Never had I imagined that I can have a younger brother of my own. Though we’re not biologically siblings but we’re far more than that. Something in him made me understand the true meaning of friendship. In his simple dreams I learned the way of simplicity and to appreciate every little things that are happening to me. Indeed he brought great joy to my heart. I don’t know but there is something that keeps us bonded together. There is no other explanation why we find ourselves treating each other as kins. Maybe the simple reason is we are destined to be brothers.

As I count my blessings that I had received this few weeks, I counted him as the most important one. Too bad, it is too late before I found him. But that doesn’t matter anymore, what important is we can still have plenty of time to catch up. I can still be a good “kuya” to my “utol”.

Now, who can argue when I say water is as thick as blood? I told you it is true! Being brothers is not in blood but it is in the heart.

Thursday, October 28, 2010

your mine and i am yours

thank you for coming into my life... for being always there fo me... i hope that this thing will last...

i will not promise my life because it can be perished all i can give you is my eternity... for in it, i can still love you even after my death...

i love you bhez...

Monday, October 18, 2010

...i miss you...

I'm smiling... but I don't mean it. I miss how we used to be... I miss how it was so real we cared each other without end… but most of all I miss you being there telling me that everything will be okay because I need that now more than ever. I am sick of feeling like something’s missing.

Saturday, October 9, 2010

Losing the "Us"



Twelve minutes before midnight and yet I am still awake. Thoughts keep flooding my mind and things keep popping in my head. Worst is, the truth that you’re not here by my side keeps me from sleeping.

I don’t know why things between us gone wrong. All I know is that I am deeply in love with you. You said you love me too but your acts say you never love me. You said you care for me but it is the other way round. You are stabbing my heart and breaking it into pieces. Your love is the air that I breathe and yet you took it away from me and it kills me silently.

All I want is you to love me back. All I am asking for is you stay here by my side and be my lady for the rest of our lives. We are never like this before. I am longing for our old days. The old days when we are so in love with each other. The old days when we paint each other’s world red. I miss the days when we only knew about our love and we never think of what other people may say to us.

But where are we now? Gone all the happy days that we had. My heart is bleeding and worst it is broken into parts. Isn’t there any chance that we can mend what is already broken? Isn’t there any way where we can still make up the differences that we have. I am so down without you. I am helpless and hopeless. All I know is that I can’t live without your love.

The agony inside me keeps on pushing me into the darkness. From here, I do not know where I am going to. From here, I do not know what I am going to do. It really hurts me but I have to accept that you had gone and live your own life away from me. Though it is hard, I have to live also my own life away from you. I never imagined life this before but I have to learn things without you.

I hope someday, the wounds will heal. I hope someday the pain will stop. And when that day will come, it is the day that I can say that the love is over and I finally lost the “us”.

Friday, October 1, 2010

Guro, Iba Ka!


(written by Joshane Samson during the PCLA celebration of the 2010 World Teachers' Day--1st place - sanaysay high school)




Si Wonderwoman, Superman, Batman, pati na si Captain Barbel at Darna ng Pilipinas, ay ilan sa mga kilalang tagapagligtas ng bayan. Sila ay mga kathang isip ng mga awtor na gustong magpaaliw sa tagabasa at tagapanuod ng mga ito. Meron silang taglay na kapangyarihan na nagbibigay daan para maligtas nila ang mga nangangailangan.

Nanonood kami, sabi ng kapatid ko, "Ate, iba talaga si Superman, ang galing niya at ang lakas pa". Napaisip ako, may mga taong noon pa man ay superhero na para sa akin. Ang aking mga guro.

Papunta sa paaralan taglay ang sinag ng umagang kayganda. Sa umaga ay gigising taglay ang isang matamis na ngiti. Tatawid sa tawiran at mag-aakay ng matandang nahihirapang tumawid. Sa paaralan sisimulan ang pagbati ng "Good Morning" sa mababait na mga estudyante. Magtuturo ng kapakipakinabang at katangitanging bagay sa aspeto ng musika, syensya, relihiyon, ingles, pagbilang, paghahanapbuhay at marami pang iba. Hindi rin mabibigo sa pagpapayo ng personal na problema at marami pang iba. Sa lungkot at ligaya andyan sila para maging guro, kaibigan, nanay, tatay, ate o kuya. All around! Naisip ko, masarap maging guro pero mahirap din. Masarap dahil ang daming buhay ang natutulungan nila at mahirap dahil madaming gawain. Pero ito ang kahangahanga sa kanila. Madami mang kontrabida sa buhay nila, sila pa din ang bida sa puso ng bawat estudyanteng naturuan nila. Andyan sila 24/7. Kasama sa hirap at ginhawa.

Ang lawak ng naisip ko, nasabi ko na lang sa kapatid ko, "Alam mo, totoo yang si Superman, kasi may kakilala akong superhero na tumutulong sa buhay ko." Natawa ang kapatid ko, "Si ate nagbibiro." Ngumiti ako at naisip ko, hindi man sila nangangailangan ng bato at sumigaw para maging si Darna o barbel para maging si Captaing Barbel, sila naman ang mga taong walang natatanging kapangyarihan ngunit sila pari ang superhero sa buhay ko. Saludo ako sa inyo. Guro, iba ka!

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Saturday, September 4, 2010

...mga pasaway...




hahahaha...ala lang...

Friday, August 20, 2010

...panalo kami...





congratz guys, panalo tayo...hahahaha

saya pa ng celebration after manalo... sa uulitin...

kenneth during his elementary graduation



galing!!!!

Thursday, August 12, 2010

teachers make a difference



i love this video

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

iv-joseph 2010

mga pasaway...hahahahaha
saan ka pa...15 minutes practice 30 minutes break...
tiyak na makakabuo yan ng sayaw...hahahaha

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

...a poem for someone...


written by Joshane Samson


sadness haunts my soul in this cold night
darkness packed my heart with fright
where is the love i am begging to feel?
where is the care i need to be standing still?

i am alone, messed up and confused
all mixed up, don't know what road to choose
please, someone, don't let me down
don't just stare and leave me on the ground

my tears run dry waiting for someone
someone to hold me and will never be gone
someone to save me from this rain
someone who will be there to lose or gain

if i fall will somebody catch me?
will somebody there to hear my plea?
is there real somebody who cares for me?
somebody out there who will love me with glee?
if you are my "someone" to be,
please come and rescue me

Monday, July 26, 2010

...doxology nila...


nung buwan ng wika 2009

...christmas presentation ng mga 4th year...


hanep c generome, hahahahahaha

...juniors and seniors' cheering squad...


the juniors and seniors

hahahaha... nahuhuli ang sound ng video...

...graduation song...


PCLAeanz 2010, graduation song during their graduation ceremony

Thursday, July 22, 2010

i am who i am






i am a teacher...


...i will influence other people
to be morally upright...

i am a friend...

...i will lend you a helping hand,
a listening ear, an undivided attention
and a shoulder to cry on...

i am a lover...

...i will love you with all my heart and
till the last beat of my heart...

i am a brother...

...i will share you what i have
and what i am going to have...

i am a son of my father...

...i will respect him and
will make him proud of me...

i am a servant of God...

...i will offer Him my love
and my praises, in Him i will
surrender my life...

i am myself...

...with no doubt, i will live
my life to the fullest...

...i can be the best teacher...

...i can be the most trusted friend...

...i can be the sweetest lover...

...i can be the most caring brother...

...i can be the most loving son...

...and most of all...

...i can be the humblest servant of God...

Thursday, July 15, 2010

...ala lang...

sakit na nga sa puso, sakit pa rin ba sa nguso... akalain ko ba na may langgam pla yung kinain ko kanina na tinapay... kung di pa ako kinagat sa nguso, doi ko mamamalayan... hayyyzzz....

pero at least yung langgam may gana akong halikan, hahahahaha... sana lang, lumipas na ang sakit na nararamdaman ko ngayon... sana kahit konti gumaling na ang duguan kong puso...

...ano naman ngayon kung ayaw nya na sa akin... di pa naman siguro katapusan ng mundo... sugat lang ito... gagaling din... di naman ako diabetic eh... LOL... magkapeklat man ang puso ko... alaala na lang iyon na minsan nagmahal ako at nasaktan...

...kaya sayo... salamat sa pagmamahal... salamat sa panahon... at salamat at naging bahagi ng buhay ko...

...pagkatapos nito... alam kong wala ng pag-asa... pero kuntento na ako na alam kong minahal mo ako at alam mo na minahal kita ng sobra-sobra... kung may kasalanan man ako... yun ay yung di ako nagtira ng maski konting pagmamahal para sa sarili ko... binuhos ko lahat para sayo...


salamat at paalam...

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

...kenneth during search for g. at binibining kalikasan 2010

...a powerhouse performance of kenneth...

...PCLAeanz 2010...

Monday, July 5, 2010

...time out...

...teka...teka...

...foul na ata ito... lagi na lang akong nasasaktan... di ka ba nakakahalata na duguan na ang puso ko... mukhang masaya ka panga na makita akong nasasaktan... ouch naman... luray luray na ako... sana naman magsawa ka na sa laro mong saksak puso...

...time out naman muna... pwede ba mski sandali... sumaya naman ako...

Saturday, July 3, 2010

...samu't sari...

...may mga bagay na di maipaliwanag ng pakiramdam lamang... mga bagay na kailangan pang masalamin natin sa mga kilos at galaw... minsan kailangan pang ipagsigawan bago natin malaman ang isang bagay na kailangan nating malaman... masakit isipin na maski pinagpipilitan na natin na gawin ay heto at di pa natin pansin...

...mabigat sa dibdib kung di man natin masabi...

...pero minsan... gusto man natin aminin...


...di natin magawa...

Thursday, July 1, 2010

...unconditional love...

this morning, during my values class, (yeah! you read it right! i am teaching values!LOL! just like i don't need it myself) i discussed about the parable of the prodigal son. though it is a very common values story that teach us about unconditional love, it still affect me somehow...

i feel that i am in the shoes of the elder son that wants vengeance for the unjust treatment that he had from his father... but somehow, i can feel the unconditional love that the father gave to his younger son...

...as i think of it, i realized that loving someone should accompanied with acceptance... accepting the past of the person you love... hating the bad deeds but not the person committing it....

...unconditional love, maybe it is giving a part of you to someone you love even he/she is not worth of it... after all, even the most hated person has the right to be loved...

...the bottom line? love with all of your heart, love with all of yourself... even it is not worth it...

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

the return of the comeback

...after almost a year without a post... here i am again to rock your world...
...what made me not to update this blog????...blame it to my busy sched...
...but dont worry my mighty pen... i am now here to use you again...

...so enemy beware... joke!!!