your mine and i am yours

thank you for coming into my life... for being always there fo me... i hope that this thing will last...

i will not promise my life because it can be perished all i can give you is my eternity... for in it, i can still love you even after my death...

i love you bhez...

...i miss you...

I'm smiling... but I don't mean it. I miss how we used to be... I miss how it was so real we cared each other without end… but most of all I miss you being there telling me that everything will be okay because I need that now more than ever. I am sick of feeling like something’s missing.

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1.03.01

Losing the "Us"

Twelve minutes before midnight and yet I am still awake. Thoughts keep flooding my mind and things keep popping in my head. Worst is, the truth that you’re not here by my side keeps me from sleeping.

I don’t know why things between us gone wrong. All I know is that I am deeply in love with you. You said you love me too but your acts say you never love me. You said you care for me but it is the other way round. You are stabbing my heart and breaking it into pieces. Your love is the air that I breathe and yet you took it away from me and it kills me silently.

All I want is you to love me back. All I am asking for is you stay here by my side and be my lady for the rest of our lives. We are never like this before. I am longing for our old days. The old days when we are so in love with each other. The old days when we paint each other’s world red. I miss the days when we only knew about our love and we never think of what other people may say to us.

But where are we now? Gone all the happy days that we had. My heart is bleeding and worst it is broken into parts. Isn’t there any chance that we can mend what is already broken? Isn’t there any way where we can still make up the differences that we have. I am so down without you. I am helpless and hopeless. All I know is that I can’t live without your love.

The agony inside me keeps on pushing me into the darkness. From here, I do not know where I am going to. From here, I do not know what I am going to do. It really hurts me but I have to accept that you had gone and live your own life away from me. Though it is hard, I have to live also my own life away from you. I never imagined life this before but I have to learn things without you.

I hope someday, the wounds will heal. I hope someday the pain will stop. And when that day will come, it is the day that I can say that the love is over and I finally lost the “us”.

Guro, Iba Ka!

(written by Joshane Samson during the PCLA celebration of the 2010 World Teachers' Day--1st place - sanaysay high school)




Si Wonderwoman, Superman, Batman, pati na si Captain Barbel at Darna ng Pilipinas, ay ilan sa mga kilalang tagapagligtas ng bayan. Sila ay mga kathang isip ng mga awtor na gustong magpaaliw sa tagabasa at tagapanuod ng mga ito. Meron silang taglay na kapangyarihan na nagbibigay daan para maligtas nila ang mga nangangailangan.

Nanonood kami, sabi ng kapatid ko, "Ate, iba talaga si Superman, ang galing niya at ang lakas pa". Napaisip ako, may mga taong noon pa man ay superhero na para sa akin. Ang aking mga guro.

Papunta sa paaralan taglay ang sinag ng umagang kayganda. Sa umaga ay gigising taglay ang isang matamis na ngiti. Tatawid sa tawiran at mag-aakay ng matandang nahihirapang tumawid. Sa paaralan sisimulan ang pagbati ng "Good Morning" sa mababait na mga estudyante. Magtuturo ng kapakipakinabang at katangitanging bagay sa aspeto ng musika, syensya, relihiyon, ingles, pagbilang, paghahanapbuhay at marami pang iba. Hindi rin mabibigo sa pagpapayo ng personal na problema at marami pang iba. Sa lungkot at ligaya andyan sila para maging guro, kaibigan, nanay, tatay, ate o kuya. All around! Naisip ko, masarap maging guro pero mahirap din. Masarap dahil ang daming buhay ang natutulungan nila at mahirap dahil madaming gawain. Pero ito ang kahangahanga sa kanila. Madami mang kontrabida sa buhay nila, sila pa din ang bida sa puso ng bawat estudyanteng naturuan nila. Andyan sila 24/7. Kasama sa hirap at ginhawa.

Ang lawak ng naisip ko, nasabi ko na lang sa kapatid ko, "Alam mo, totoo yang si Superman, kasi may kakilala akong superhero na tumutulong sa buhay ko." Natawa ang kapatid ko, "Si ate nagbibiro." Ngumiti ako at naisip ko, hindi man sila nangangailangan ng bato at sumigaw para maging si Darna o barbel para maging si Captaing Barbel, sila naman ang mga taong walang natatanging kapangyarihan ngunit sila pari ang superhero sa buhay ko. Saludo ako sa inyo. Guro, iba ka!