self respect

“No one can insult you without your consent.”

Familiar? Yah, it is the advice of Joe to Princess Mia, in the famous movie “The Princess Diaries”. Well, it is simple line but it is true, the reason why other people can hurt or insult us because we let them do it to us. We’re not perfect but we deserved for respect not judgment.

If we want others to respect and love us, start trusting yourself and earn their respect. Start to believe in yourself before other can trust you. If you can see the beauty within you, then no one can insult you. Love yourself, love other people and most of all respect yourself and respect other people.

on friendship

The passion and the loyalty will never came to a cease if the friendship is true and strong. True friendship does not affected by time and distance. there still ties that keep your hearts bind and connected no matter how far you are to each other. It is just like something that is keep pushing you to your way home, and that is to your friends. Just like what the saying goes " the language of friendship is not word but meaning".

alis!!!!

Ano ang mas nakakatakot, ang mga taong matiwasay na namamayapa na o ang mga taong bahagi ng mapait na nakaraan? Naitanong ko lang dahil sa nararanasan ko ngayon. Takot ako na harapin ang katotohanan na bahagi ako ng isang pangyayari na muntik ng sumira sa aking pagkatao. Hirap, sakit, sama ng loob at galit ang nararamdaman ko ngayon, dahil may isang taong pilit na bumabalik. Bakit pa? Maayos na ang buhay namin, nalagpasan namin ang maraming taon na wala siya at masaya na naming hinaharap ang bukas na wala rin siya.

Sana nanatili na lang siyang wala sa buhay namin para maski pag-alala na ginagawa namin sa patay ay naibigay namin sa kanya na walang halong pait at galit.

mga gintong aral ni bob ong

About sa Buhay:


"nalaman kong hindi final exam ang passing rate ng buhay. hindi ito multiple choice, identification, true or false, enumeration or fill-in-the- blanks na sinasagutan kundi essay na isinusulat araw-araw. Huhusgahan ito hindi base sa kung tama o mali ang sagot, kundi base sa kung may kabuluhan ang mga isinulat o wala. Allowed ang erasures."

"Kumain ka na ng siopao na may palamang pusa o maglakad sa bubog nang nakayapak, pero wag na wag kang susubok mag-drugs. Kung hindi mo kayang umiwas, humingi ka ng tulong sa mga magulang mo dahil alam nila kung saan ang mga murang supplier at hindi ka nila iisahan."

"Mangarap ka at abutin mo. Wag mong sisihin ang sira mong pamilya, palpak mong syota, pilay mong tuta, o mga lumilipad na ipis. Kung may pagkukulang sa'yo mga magulang mo, pwde kang manisi at maging rebelde. Tumigil ka sa pag-aaral, mag-asawa ka, mag-drugs ka, magpakulay ka ng buhok sa kili-kili. Sa banding huli, ikaw din ang biktima. Rebeldeng walang napatunayan at bait sa sarili."

"Tuparin ang mga pangarap. Obligasyon mo yan sa sarili mo. Kung gusto mo mang kumain ng balde-baldeng lupa para malagay ka sa Guinness Book of World Records at maipagmalaki ng bansa natin, sige lang. Nosi balasi. wag mong pansinin ang sasabihin ng mga taong susubok humarang sa'yo. Kung hindi nagsumikap ang mga scientist noon, hindi pa rin tayo dapat nakatira sa jupiter ngayon. Pero hindi pa rin naman talaga tayo nakatira sa jupiter dahil nga hindi nagsumikap ang mga scientist noon. Kita mo yung moral lesson?"

"Nalaman kong habang lumalaki ka, maraming beses kang madadapa. Bumangon ka man ulit o hindi, magpapatuloy ang buhay, iikot ang mundo, at mauubos ang oras."



About sa Pag-aaral:

"Mag-aral maigi. Kung titigil ka sa pag-aaral, manghihinayang ka pagtanda mo dahil hindi mo naranasan ang kakaibang ligayang dulot ng mga araw na walang pasok o suspendido ang klase o absent ang teacher. (Haaay, sarap!)."

"Nalaman kong marami palang libreng lecture sa mundo, ikaw ang gagawa ng syllabus. Maraming teacher sa labas ng eskuwelahan, desisyon mo kung kanino ka magpapaturo. Lahat tayo enrolled ngayon sa isang university, maraming subject na mahirap, pero dahil libre, ikaw ang talo kung nag-drop ka. Isa-isa tayong ga-graduate, iba't-ibang paraan. tanging diploma ay ang mga alaala ng kung ano mang tulong o pagmamahal ang iniwan natin sa mundong pinangarap nating baguhin minsan..."

"Hikayatin mo lahat ng kakilala mo na magkaroon ng kahit isa man lang paboritong libro sa buhay nila. Dahil wala nang mas kawawa pa sa mga taong literado pero hindi nagbabasa."

"dalawang dekada ka lang mag-aaral. kung 'di mo pagtityagaan, limang dekada ng kahirapan ang kapalit. sobrang lugi. kung alam lang 'yan ng mga kabataan, sa pananaw ko ehh walang gugustuhing umiwas sa eskwela."



About sa Pag-ibig:

"Kung hindi mo mahal and isang tao, wag ka nang magpakita ng motibo para mahalin ka nya.."

"Lahat naman ng tao sumeseryoso pag tinamaan ng pagmamahal. Yun nga lang, hindi lahat matibay para sa temptasyon."

"Gamitin ang puso para alagaan ang taong malapit sayo. Gamitin ang utak para alagaan ang sarili mo."

"Huwag mong bitawan ang bagay na hindi mo kayang makitang hawak ng iba."

"Huwag mong hawakan kung alam mong bibitawan mo lang."

"Huwag na huwag ka hahawak kapag alam mong may hawak ka na."

"Parang elevator lang yan eh, bakit mo pagsisiksikan ung sarili mo kung walang pwesto para sayo. Eh meron naman hagdan, ayaw mo lang pansinin."

"Kung maghihintay ka nang lalandi sayo, walang mangyayari sa buhay mo.. Dapat lumandi ka din."

"Pag may mahal ka at ayaw sayo, hayaan mo. Malay mo sa mga susunod na araw ayaw mo na din sa kanya, naunahan ka lang."

"Hiwalayan na kung di ka na masaya. Walang gamot sa ***** kundi pagkukusa."

"Pag hindi ka mahal ng mahal mo wag ka magreklamo. Kasi may mga tao rin na di mo mahal pero mahal ka.. Kaya quits lang."

"Bakit ba ayaw matulog ng mga bata sa tanghali? alam ba nilang pag natuto silang umibig e hindi na sila makakatulog kahit gusto nila?

"Hindi lungkot o takot ang mahirap sa pag-iisa kundi ang pagtanggap na sa bilyon-bilyong tao sa mundo, wala man lang nakipaglaban upang makasama ka."

"Kung nagmahal ka ng taong di dapat at nasaktan ka, wag mong sisihin ang puso mo. Tumitibok lang yan para mag-supply ng dugo sa katawan mo. Ngayon, kung magaling ka sa anatomy at ang sisisihin mo naman ay ang hypothalamus mo na kumokontrol ng emotions mo, mali ka pa rin! Bakit? Utang na loob! Wag mong isisi sa body organs mo ang mga sama ng loob mo sa buhay! Tandaan mo: magiging masaya ka lang kung matututo kang tanggapin na hindi ang puso, utak, atay o bituka mo ang may kasalanan sa lahat ng nangyari sayo, kundi IKAW mismo!"

love me

Everyday in my prayer, I always wish for a girl that will be my life forever. A girl that will accept me for who I am and not as they expected. Love me or hate me, this is me, and nothing can change me.

I am not perfect, nor nearly being one. I snore, I fart, I eat a lot like there’s no tomorrow. But believe me, despite of these, I still a person capable of loving and being loved. I am just human, I can commit mistakes and I can be the biggest mistake in this world, but as a human I can also feel the misery of others and I can heal the wounds of hatred by my passion. I am not a superstar, I am a just simple person but believe me I can be your knight in shining armor anytime that you need a hero. I am neither the big bloke in town nor the best looking guys in the block and I admit I am nothing. But being nothing is everything because in simplicity there is beauty that can radiate and can touch many hearts.

I can’t promise my whole life because there is death that can interrupt but I can promise eternity, for in eternity I can continue to love even after my last breath.

conquering our worst enemy

As I continue to survive this challenging life, I also have to tackle the continuous battle that I have. Every moment that I have is another stage of war that I have to win. Life is just a set of conflicts that we need to sort.

But the worst enemy that we have is ourselves. Reality bites, but it is true. Our anxiety and self insecurity kill us little by little. We continue to fail to figure out what is our strength but instead what we see are only our weaknesses. Because of that we are unable to find confidence within ourselves. We keep blaming other people for our failures and downfall. But seeing the other side, why we never our own lapses taken into account of our failures. That is because we are very reluctant to admit that we are one to be blame. And because of that little by little, we are destructing ourselves without knowing it.

Conquering one’s enemy is conquering oneself. Maybe it is the hardest part of the battle and winning it is a must in order to survive. But how can we do it? The answer is simple. Be yourself. By doing so, we will find the confidence back within us. When you finally get your confidence back, hold it on and conquer your anxiety. Know your weaknesses, by knowing it we can find way in how to draw strength out of our weaknesses.

Maybe it is not easy doing it. But if we continue to believe that we can do it, and then for sure nothing or no one can gonna stop us in winning the battle.

from blue to red

Twists are part of my life. But not all that moments brought good things to me. But the most unexpected thing that ever happened to me was the time when the persons that I thought my friends put me down and dumped me, and worst kicked my damn ass into hell. I was miserable at that time. I thought bad things about my self. My morale and self-esteem were very low. I tried to get trust from my friends, but most of them turned their back on me. I was caught in the middle of nothingness. I was in blue.

But, just like my fave song “Rainbow” said, “There is always rainbow after the rain”. Haha, I realized that I have to move on and prove them wrong. Little by little, I got back my confidence. I began to see the brighter side of my life. My family and my friends who remained by my side were source of my energy. I visited lot of places and reflected from the experience that I gained. I try to understand the meaning of life in the middle of continuous battle. I learned to love my self and to be happy on what I have. I found peace within myself. I found happiness out from loneliness. Then suddenly, another twist came into my life, “out of blue paint, I painted my world red”.

look through my eyes

special thanks to andeng who made this great banner

hahahaha, she made my charming eyes look more striking

My Home

I was born in Ilocos Norte and was raised and spent my first five years of school in Bulacan. When my father decided to try his luck in Middle East, we had no choice but to move to my grandma in Uson, Masbate. At first, I was very disappointed, I don’t want to leave Bulacan and to start another life in far flung rural area in Masbate. I was only 10 years old at that time. I cried a lot when I first heard of that news. Leaving Baliuag for me was leaving my friends behind and the memories of my childhood.

It was summer in the year 1995 when I first set my feet on the ground of Masbate. What laid in my eyes were my worst expectations, no TV channels, frequent brownouts, dialect that I didn’t understand and living with my strict grandma. It was hell beyond my expectation.

My first couple of weeks in Uson was misery for me. I felt that I was out of place when I am with a group because I do not know what they are talking about because they keep chatting using the local dialect Masbateño. At first day of school, it was just like I was in the middle of a police interrogation because my classmate kept bombarding me with silly questions. But as days passed, things had change. I was able to learn the local dialects and started to befriend my classmates.

Though I got hard times on my first days, but I was wrong with my first impression. I found my most cherished friends in Uson. In that place, I discovered so many things about myself. Living with my people in Masbate was a life changing experience. I learned a lot from them. In their simple way of life, I learned the complexity of life. I got to know the root of my existence.

Living in Masbate gave me the chance to meet some of most important persons in my life. My most favorite teacher in my whole damn life was my class adviser when I was Grade VI, Ma’am Vilma. I was very impressed on her. She was very good in her craft. Thanks to her because she was the one who encouraged and honed me to become a writer. She was the one who coached me when I won my first inter-school academic competition. She is a great inspiration to me.

I was also able to meet my friends in Masbate. Among them are my best buddies, Eduard, Angelo, Dan and Biboy. I also met a good friends like Lorelie, Sharon, Ave, Ginalyn, Carmen, Mariane, Ivy, Bhel, Marlo, Rey and Jesser. Each one of them had great contribution on my personal growth.

Uson, also had a great part on my education. It was lucky for me to be able to spent my secondary years in that “rural” area, because if not, maybe I was one of those students who spent their time in an entertainment hub brought by urbanization rather that attending their classes. I experienced the life of a vistanian. Though it was only a small school, but I learned a lot from my alma mater. I graduated, though without honor because of my tardiness, but I was the very first Vista Editor in Chief who hailed from Panisijan.

Shortly after graduation, I returned to Bulacan to pursue my tertiary education, but the feeling was very different. When I was a little tyke I don’t want to leave Bulacan, but that very time, there was pain in my heart when I left Masbate. I really wanted to continue my studies in Masbate but my father wanted me to be with them. But even I am in Bulacan, I continued to live the standard of being Masbateño and I am proud of it.

Maybe someday, when I am old, I want to spend my last remaining years in Masbate. I want to live there and visit the places and remember the days I endear. I am going to tell my children that once there was a little boy who hate to live in that place but eventually learned to consider Masbate as his home.

people who wished me a happy birthday

1. Tatay -- the best tatay in the world
2. Kuya -- hahaha ang kuya kong topakin
3. Ate -- ang ate kong makulit
4. Eduard -- best buddy
5. Hilda -- ex ni eduard hahaha na good friend/relative ko
6. Tita Liz -- business partner
7. Jane -- close friend
8. Kuya Bhong -- bf ni jeng na friend ko rin
9. Aizel -- co teacher ko dati at close friend ko
10. Strelle -- friend ko sa oceana
11. Gemma -- friend ko sa oceana
12. Kuya Rox -- katrabaho ko
13. Kuya Onie -- katrabaho ko
14. Windy -- dati kong student na habulin “daw” ng mga boys
15. Eva -- ex
16. Analyn -- dati kong student
17. Saren -- si bunso
18. Mae-ann -- dati kong student
19. Kathlyn -- relative
20. Ate Mil -- katrabaho
21. Kare -- close friend
22. Rey-ann -- childhood friend
23. Jossah -- si bogz
24. Andrea -- prinsesa raw sya hahahaha
25. Desiree -- friend ko sa oceana
26. Tenessee -- friend ko sa oceana
27. Grace -- si gara
28. Hannah -- ang cute na matulis
29. Jossie -- friend ko sa oceana
30. Jerica -- dati kong student
31. Marilyn -- dati kong student
32. Francis -- SK Chairman Kiko
33. Jemarie -- dati kong student
34. Pamela -- dati kong student
35. Jessie Marie -- dati kong student
36. Mariz -- friend ko sa oceana
37. Raquel -- dati kong student
38. Daisy -- college classmate
39. Jenny -- childhood friend
40. Chester -- friend ko sa oceana
41. Jesusa -- student ko dati
42. Rhea -- co-teacher ko dati
43. Dhey -- co-teacher ko dati
44. Regie -- kabagang ko
45. Maybelliene -- dati kong student
    

birthday gift

Tomorrow, September 19, is a special day. Know why? It’s my birthday. Well another year for me. I am getting one year older once again. But it’s just like ordinary day for me. Tomorrow, I will wake up in the morning, I will greet myself, then will receive greetings from my family and my friends, the usual stuff.

But I am dreaming of a perfect birthday for me. A perfect birthday for me is to see my family living happily. I do not want great riches but I want to give them a convenient life. It is also a bonus if I can be with my old friends. A simple life is a great birthday gift for me, a quite life where I can live without pretensions and far from prying eyes and judgmental people.

Yeah I wish I could have that. Maybe someday I can have it.

making difference

They say that there is no permanent in this world except changes. All things, people and circumstances tend to change. You expect it or not, it will happen. But changes can be meaningful if it is done with a consultation with your greatest mentor, your experiences.

We tend to disregard the past events in our life and its impact and how it influenced our personal growth. We repeatedly commit big mistakes that we promised not to do again. Though imperfection is part of us as human, but still it is not reason to act immature. If we can only master the lessons from mistakes and tragedy of life then we can make great changes for this world.

We only pass this world once, no second chance, no rewind. Live the most of your life. Switch your habit to morally upright one. Try to reach other people. Touch more lives. Living a fruitful life is inviting more individuals to be part of you and you being part of them. Life is too short, spend it fruitfully. Though you will never please everybody, but at least you try to make them please with you.

Changes, will never hurt you, but changes can make a difference. If you will start now, then maybe, tomorrow you can be truly proud of yourself.

...bakit ako naging astig...

Sa persepsyon ng nakararami, ang pagiging isang astig ay makikita kung paano ka pumorma at kung paano ka maging cool sa paningin ng ibang tao. Ang iba tinitingnan nila ang pagiging astig ng isang tao sa mga bagay na inaakala nilang magiging kabuuan ng kanilang pagkatao. Astig ka kung marunong kang magpalabas ng usok ng sigarilyo mula sa ilong mo, o kaya naman kung nasa uso ang cellphone mo. Cool ka kung alam mo kung paano makipagsabayan ng inom sa mga sunog baga, o kaya naman kung nagbibilang ka ng napasagot na babae o napaikot na lalake. Sa iba naman, sa mga medyo sosi, cool ka pag may modelo ka “four wheels” o kaya mga hi-tech na mga gadgets. Kung babae ka, astig pag prada ang bag mo, signature ang damit at suki ka ni Ricky Reyes. Sa lalake naman, cool kung may condom ka sa wallet, para masabi ng mga kabarkada mo na di ka na virgin. Astig ka pag ang suot mo ay imported at signature brand. Hanep din ang dating kung may tsikot o kaya motor pag papasok ka sa school with matching shade maski umuulan. Iba ang dating mo kapag di ka nasisindak ng mga teacher. O kaya naman, cool kapag lagi ka sa mall, nakatambay lagi sa starbucks, gumugimik sa “the embassy” at laman ng mga gigs. Wow pare cool!

Pero, kung sa paningin ng iba ay astig ang mga bagay na iyon parang may mali. Ang astig ay tagalong slang na ibig sabihin ay tigas, ikinukumpara ito sa tatag at tigas ng kalooban. Di bam as magandang sabihin na astig ang isang tao kung nalagpasan at nalalagpasan n gang bawat yugto ng kanyang buhay ng maykatatagan kahit gaano ito kahirap at kagulo. Kung tinawag kang astig at puro luho at pagkilala lamang ang nakukuha mo dahil sa mga bagay na hindi mo naman pinaghirapan, ano ang saysay ng katatagan ng loob? Nasaan ang tigas ng dibdib?

Mas cool pa ang mga batang nagbabanat ng buto at pinandidirihan ng karamihan dahil sa dungis nila. Dahil sa kanilang kamusmusan, nalaman nila ang tunay na laro at ikot ng buhay. Mahirap ang kanilang ginagawa, pero kinakaya nila at hinaharap nila. Kaawa-awa silang tingnan dahil ninakaw sa kanila ang kanilang pagiging musmos. Pero mas mabuti pa sila, natututo sila. Di sila tulad ng mga mapanghamak na tinedyer na walang ginawa kundi ang manglustay ng per na pinaghirapan ng mga magulang nila. Mas nakakaawa sila kaysa sa mga astig na batang nagbabanat ng buto.

Ako, masasabi ko, astig ako. Tiyak, natatawa ka sa sinabi ko. Makapal na kung makapal na ang mukha pero uulitin ko at paninindigan ko, astig ako, cool ako. Baka itanong nyo sa akin, kung ayos ba ang porma ko, kung may wheels ba ako at kung ano ang tatak ng mga damit ko, ay naku, di ko na sasagutin at tyak, sisimangot lang kayo.

Pero, ako ang magtatanong sa inyo, naranasan nyo ba ang mga hirap na naranasan ko? Pinagdaanan nyo ba ang mga kabiguan na dumating sa akin? O di kaya, nasadlak nab a kayo sa matinding kalungkutan at ang hindi ka angkinin o kilalanin bilang ikaw? Sasabihin nyo, ang drama ko, pero yan ang katotohanan sa aking buhay. Marami akong pinagdaan at nalagpasan ko ang mga iyon. Marami pang pagsubok ang darating sa akin pero kakayanin ko. Pinatatag ng panahon ang kalooban ko at buong pagkato ko. Astig ako dahil kinaya ko yun lahat.

Naiiba ang kwento ng aking buhay kaysa sa karaniwan. Parang nasa pelikula at teleserye. Malungkot na masaya, pero lahat pinagpapasalamat ko dahil iyon ang bumuo sa aking pagkatao. Ang nagturo sa puso kong magmahal at magpatawad. Minsan, naiinggit ako sa ibang tao dahil sa iba ang nagging takbo ng kanilang kwento, pero sabi ko, bakit gugustuhin ko ang maging iba, eh ako ito at naiiba ako sa lahat.

Sa dami ng nangyari sa akin, din a ako basta-basta mapapasuko. Kinaya ko na ang mga hirap at kakayanin ko pang ang mga darating. Astig ako, hindi dahil, maporma ako at hi-tech ang mga gadgets ko, pero dahil matatag ako at lalo pang tumatatag. May kumontra man dun, wala na akong pakialam, basta para sa akin astig ako, cool!

...buti pa sila...

ang tagal ko nang di nakapagpost at wala sana akong balak na magpost ngayon, kaya lang masyado akong nadala sa napanood ko kahapon... alam ko na marami sa ating nakapanood ng wowowee kahapon, naiyak ako sa segment ng willie of fortune, pero hindi dahil sa naaawa ako sa kalagayan nila sa buhay, bakit ako maaawa eh halos magkakapareho lang kaming mga hikahos, naiyak ako sa inggit sa mga kasali... mga ina kasi sila, pero hindi sila basta mga ina, kundi mga inang may malasakit sa kanilang mga anak, lumayo man sila sa kanilang mga anak iyon ay upang hindi takasan ang responsibilidad nila bagkus para harapin ito at ng mabigyan ng magandang buhay ang mga anak... sa kabila ng hirap at pagdurusa, hindi nila tinalikuran ang kanilang mga anak...

nakakainggit sila, pinaparamdam nila sa kanilang mga anak na maski malayo sila, mahal pa rin nila ang kanilang mga supling, kaya nilang tiisin ang hirap mailagay lang sa mabuting kalagayan ang mga anak...

masarap sa pakiramdam ng isang anak ang malaman na ang kanyang ina ay malayo man ay malapit pa rin, na kahit anong mangyari anak pa rin ang laging una sa kanya

ako kasi, di ko naranasan yun, kaya buti pa sila, alam nila ang pakiramdam na mahalin ng isang nanay

i survived the sagada challenges

first banaue, then bontoc then at last our main destination....dandaran....sagada!!!

the town of sagada, is what we called a special place, hahahaha, it is because of the atmosphere, the climate, the people and the beautiful spots

being in sagada is a combination of a modern style of living and the traditional ethnic practices, people will welcome you with warm smile

foods there were spectacular and will make you forget your diet, hahahahaha

but the best thing about sagada are the caves, and speaking of that, i experienced the what they called cave interconnection, huh, we spent 4 hours of cave adventure full of sweat and endless treck

but despite of that body ache that i got during that little adventure i enjoyed it, whew, and now i can truly say that "i came, i saw and i conquered the sagada challenges"

bontoc: the city in the mountain

yeah you read it right!!! bontoc is a city in the mountain, (although officially it is not yet a city), but bontoc is an amazing place. it is a prosperous town in the heart of the mountain that it can be mistaken as a city. as we were in road going to bontoc, i am expecting to see another rural town, but what i saw is a town with combination of cultural heritage and modern comfort of life...

bontoc is also amazing because of it's rice terraces which is part of the "rice terraces of the philippine cordilleras". it's fine climate also made me feel at home... i was also fascinated by their foods, specially the pinikpikan, hahaha, and hey, i also love the friendly people there, their warm gestures and welcoming smiles, well, for sure, i gonna comeback to bontoc...

isang umaga sa banaue

napakasarap ng pakiramdam ng paunti-unting dampi sa iyong mga pisngi ang paunti-unting pagdampi ng pang-umagang simoy ng hangin at sasabayan mo pa ng isang tasang mainit na kape, ahhhh heaven... mas lalo pang sasarap ang pakiramdam kung ginagawa mo ito sa harap ng pamosong rice terraces ng banaue

masarap sa pakiramdam na marating ang tinaguriang 8th wonder of the world, marami sa atin ang gustong marating ito, at maswerte ako at sa wakas, ang nakikita at nababasa ko lang na banaue rice terraces ay nakita ko na rin

hahahahahaha, next destination...bontoc!!!!!

ang teacher's desk

...minsan ko nang naranasan ang "maupo" sa teacher's desk... mula sa lugar na iyon, nakita ko kung paano mabuhay na isang guro....

...ni sa hinagap, di ko inasahan na mararanasan ko ang makapagturo at maging kabahagi ng buhay ng mga batang naniwala sa akin... mula sa aking pagkakaupo sa teacher's desk, naunawaan ko ang kalagayan ng aking mga naging guro... hindi madali ang maupo sa lugar na iyon... kaakibat ng pagupo mo na iyon ay ang tungkulin mo na pangalagaan ang yong pangalan upang ikaw ay igalang at pakinggan... isang malaking hamon araw-araw na makapagbahagi ka ng kaalaman... ang bawat araw ay isang pakikipagtunggali sa kamangmangan... mahirap, masaya at marangal ang isang buhay ng guro... nasa iyo ang tinig na pinapakinggan at nasa iyo ang pagkakataon na umukit ng isang kinabukasan ng mga kabataan na nagpupumilit na makabuo ng isang bukas na may liwanag...

...ang apat na taon ko na ginugol sa larangan ng pagtuturo, di lamang ang mga batang nakadaupang palad ko ang natuto sa akin, bagkus ako ma'y maraming natutunan sa kanila, nasalamin ko ang aking sarili sa kanilang buhay... ang kanilang kwento ay naging kwento ko... ang kanilang mga munting pangarap ay naging hamon sa akin, ang kanilang mga ngiti ay naging munting kasiyahan sa akin... naging bahagi ako ng buhay nila at naging bahagi sila ng aking puso...

...binago ng mga batang iyon ang aking pananaw... masasabi kong mas marami akong natutunan sa kanila... sa kanilang mga simpleng buhay at pangarap, natutunan ko ang pagmamahal, pagkakaibigan, pagpapatawad at pagtanaw sa mas maliwanag na bahagi ng buhay... sa kanilang mga munting mithiin natutunan kong mangarap at maniwala na kaya kong abutin ang mga ninanais ko... minsan, naging estudyante ako, naging guro, at kasabay nun, naging estudyante ulit ako, ngunit sa pagkakataon na iyon, karanasan na mula sa pakikibahagi ko sa buhay ng mga bata ang naging guro ko... masalimuot ngunit madaling matutunan ang mga aralin sa pagkakataong iyon... at ng lisanin ko na ang apat na sulok ng silid-aralan bilang isang guro, matatag na ako, dahil alam ko, may naibahagi ako, may mga buhay na akong naiukit ng pangarap at may mga pangarap na ako para sa aking sarili... mumunti ngunit kapag natupad isang malaking pagbabago sa aking buhay...

dugo sa ginintuang pangako

Didipio, Kasibu, Nueva Vizcaya-The barangay chairman of a mining village here, who dreamed that his village would become as world-class community one day, was shot dead by unidentified assassin Thursday night on a grassy footpath leading to his house.

The bloodied body of Barangay Captain Paul Baguilat, 55, was found by his daughter Tennisee Baguilat, 24, at about 6:30 yesterday morning.

She said her father had failed to go home the night before.

Ikinagulat ko nang mabasa ko ito, umaga ng May 31, 2008. Di ko personal na kakilala si Kap. Paul, nakikita ko lang sya kapag umaakyat ako ng Didipio kung saan may project ang kompanyang pinagtratrabahuan ko. Di man kami lubos na magkakilala, kakilala ko personally ang anak nya na si Gladys at Tenessee. Maraming haka-haka ang kumalat ukol sa walang awang pagpaslang kay kap. Ngunit ang isa sa pinakamalaking haka-haka ng dahilan ng pagkamatay sa kanya ay may kinalaman sa on going project ng OceanaGold Philippines sa pagmimina ng ginto sa lugar na iyon.

Maraming nalungkot sa pangyayaring iyon. Pakiwari ng karamihan, isang dagok ang dumating sa mga tagaDidipio. Ngunit sa ganang sa akin, di ko maunawaan kung bakit kailangan pang magbuwis ng buhay ng dahil lang sa sigalot ng pagmimina. Hindi masama na pangarapin ni kap. Paul na makita nya ang kanyang lugar na pinaglilingkuran na umaahon sa kahirapan at nagkakaroon ng pagbabago. Ang pagkamatay ng isang butihing lider na tulad ni Kap. Paul Baguilat ay isang kawalan di lamang para sa mga tagaDidipio kundi para sa mas nakakaraming tao.

Malungkot at nakakapanghinayang, ngunit sana, sa pagdanak ng dugo sa lupa ng ginintuang pangako, ay magdala ng aral at pagkakaisa upang mapaunlad pa lalo ang lugar na pinagbuwisan ng buhay ni Kap. Paul. Kaya kay Kap. Paul Baguilat, kung nasaan man sya, saludo ako sa kanya.

WOW Pulilan

If you want to unwind and to take a bit of relaxation... why not try to visit Pulilan and mystify by its beauty. An emerging industrial and investment hub in the heart of the land of the gallant heroes, Pulilan is a 1st class municipality that has a fascinating artistic, historical, cultural and economic background.

Home of some of industrial establishments, Pulilan is considered as investor friendly town. It is also good source of profitable manpower. With the blend of technological advancement and agricultural progress, Pulilan is one of the fast developing town in Bulacan, evidence is the flocking of known fastfood chains and commercial establishments.

If you want to know more about Pulilan, then you have to start first with our foods. Top of the list is the Pulilan's pride, the Pasalubong Cake House that offers different varieties of cakes, breads and sweets. If you are craving for some grilled fish and seafoods then you have to try the Alberto's Lutong Bahay. Also famous in Pulilan, is Elvie's food House, in just 20 pesos, you can already enjoy their special siopao or halo-halo. You want some bite of pandesal? Then BM Bakeshop is just perfect for you. But the best way to satisfy your craving, hah, just wait for someone to shout "baluttttttttttttt" in the middle of the night and then, daran!!!! You can have "balut" sprinkled with some salt or vinegar and start feasting it with gusto.

Also in Pulilan, you can found houses that served as a silent witness of colorful history, the best example of these houses is the Villa Casanova, better known as the "pink castle". This majestic wonder of architecture stands beside the national highway also served as production set of some local films. And speaking of local films, Pulilan produced some of the best people in entertainment industry, like Jamie Rivera, Viva Hotbabes' Jen Rosendall, Sharlene San Pedro, Mellisa Ricks and the newest addition to this group of talented artists is the Pinoy Big Brother Teen Edition Plus 2nd Big Placer Robi Domingo who hailed from Dampol 1st, Pulilan. Aside from this people who excelled in entertainment industry, numerous Pulileño also made it to different fields. We have high ranking officials in military, government offices, justice courts, police department and public posts. Pulilan also produced numerous nurses, engineers, architects, and many more young professionals that will contribute to the growth of Pulilan, as well to the growth of our nation.


Pulilan is a blend of artistic, cultural and nature wonder. One of its main attraction is "the Pulilan Butterfly Haven", home of the flying gem, this site is dedicated to butterfly-enthusiasts, nature lovers, and environmental conservationists. It also features the doll museum and a butterfly shaped pool for those who want to take a dip. Pulilan is where you can also find a great variety of choices of resorts, among those are La Pulilan Riverview Resort, Villa Lorenzo Resort, Maryland Resort, Virgoni Resort and many more. Also in Pulilan, is a community based museum, Museo de San Isidro Labrador, managed by JEFARCA and can be found in San Isidro Labrador Parish Church. It showcases the colorful arts and culture of Pulilan. The Pulilan Cafe, is a rendezvous of budding artists. It is a blend of visual arts and art of drinking coffee.

All year round, Pulilan is a town of full of expectation and you can assure the spirit of festivity in the air for the whole year. In the month of January, Pulileñ alway celebrate New Year with a bang. Great food, spectacular fireworks and merry making is what you can expect during this celebration. In the month of February or March, the feast of Biglang Awa, begins during the Ash Wednesday, a one week festivity follows. Baratillo will flock the street where the little chapel of Birhen ng Biglang Awa stood and the feast will conclude with a grand procession and people feasting the half cooked rice and vegies which popularly known has healing wonder.

"Semana Santa" in Pulilan begins with the feast of "Mahal na Señor" in Lumbac, Pulilan same day with the "Domingo de Ramos" or Palm Sunday, after that a week long of lent and devotion. It includes the "pasyon", last supper, visita iglesias, penitensya and procession during Holy Wednesday and Good Friday. A day of silence and vigil will take place during Black Saturday and the lenten season will conclude with the "Salubong" that will take place on the crack of the dawn of Easter Sunday and the feast of Pagkabuhay.

Month of May means merry making, most of the 19 barangays here stage their fiesta celebration during this month. You can expect reat foods, entertainment and fun. But those celebrations are just appetizer for the annual "Pulilan Carabao Festival". The Pulilan Carabao Festival happens every year on May 14th and 15th. It is a thanksgiving fiesta that features oiled, perfumed carabao. People pay homage to Pulilan's patron saint by kneeling in front of his statue. For a day, the carabaos are scrubbed clean, almost to a pinkish color. Afterwards, they are massaged with oil and crowned with hibiscus and frangipani. On the afternoon of May 14, people from different places flocks the street to witness the annual grand parade that features walking bands, floats pulled by carabao, dashing beauties and to topped it all, the gentle beasts ready to kneel before our patron saint, San Isidro Labrador de Pulilan. After the grand parade, different activities of merry making will follow and will make you dance like crazy, hah, you will know what I mean if you experienced the fun. But month of May will not be complete without the Santa Cruzan or Flores de Mayo. A showcase of our devotion to the Holy Mother and a showcase of the unique beauty of Pulileño. Spiced with food and fire works display, the procession of these beauties is one of the most anticipated in town.


November in Pulilan is the time for us to remember our beloved ones who already passed away. Although "Undas" is celebrated by people from around the world, we celebrate it with a little twist. We do it with a little touch of merry making and a family get together. People flocks together in different cemeteries, catch up with each other and eat great foods. But even we have that kind of celebration, we do not forget the true essence of the day, we offer prayers and wishes for our departed relatives.

But the merriest time of the year is the yuletide season. As early as September, you can see "parol" hanging in the windows and sparkling Christmas lights in the garden. The season officially starts at the break of dawn of December 16, which means misa de gallo or simbang gabi. People rise up early to hear the morning mass and anticipating the delicious bibingka or puto bungbong matched with salabat after the mass. This morning mass will continue untill the day before Christmas and everyone is hoping to complete the simbang gabi believeing that if they do so, they can have a wish to be granted by the Boy Jesus on Christmas. But before the day of Christmas, Misa de Aguinaldo will take place with "Panuluyan", a re-enacyment of the birth of Jesus, as the highlights. After the mass, family members will feast with their "noche buena" that usuall includes our all time favorite keso de bola and hamon. Pulileño, then, will rise early on the 25th of December to greet everyone a happy Christmas. Youngsters will go to their elders and ninong or ninang to kiss their hands and to wait for their aguinaldo. (Nah, that's why after Christmas, nothing left in my pocket. I have lots of inaanak, LOL).

But perhaps, the best thing about Pulilan are the Pulileños. These people are ready to welcome you with smile. You will never get bore with Pulileño friend. These fun loving, artistic and religious people will surely make your visit in Pulilan an experience for a lifetime.

So what are you waiting for, "tara na byahe tayo, nang iyong masilayan ang ganda ng Pulilan at ang galing ng Pulileño!"

a la muchacha de mis sueños

A la muchacha de mi sueño, sé que era millas aparte pero para mí, usted está siempre aquí con mí. No sé cuál es en usted que hecho mi mundo que retumba abajo. You can make me say yes even if I mean to say no. Usted es mi mundo y mi vida. Mis golpes del corazón solamente para usted. Su voz es la música que hace que baila toda la noche. El calor de su amor tenía no congelado la sensación sólida dentro de mí. Te amo y yo le amará siempre hasta la respiración pasada de mi vida.

JoChRenAH

One of the best days of my life was when i'm still part of the angelean community. During those days i experienced lot of things, one of this experience was when i met five individuals who eventually became part of me, forever.

I first met jossah when she was still grade 5, way back february 2003, i was then having my on the job training at jmpatrich school which later renamed as holy angels academy of pulilan. She was known to me to be bubbly and wacky. She was the official joker of their class and also the headache of her teachers. But despite of these, she became close to me, she gave me respect and i gave her my attention. She is someone who can you count on anytime... our big friend... and our "bogz"...

I met chamine when they were still second year. She transferred from a chinese school, and i became a private tutor of his two brothers sherwin and stevee. This lass is so brainy, a well off girl but yet so humble. We shared so many moments. I love her as my sis, i really treasured the times that we were together, specially when i spent christmas and new year with them. She and her siblings are just like my family... she is my one and only "achi"...

Just like cham, saren was a transferee student when they were second year. Another brainy kid. I love her so much. She never left me during my most troubled times. She never let me feel that no one seems to believe on me. During one of my darkest days, she was the only one who remained and stood beside me. I am her big bro and she is forever my little sis, forever my little angel and my "bunso"...

Andrea, is my princess, the official kikay of JoChRenAH, a girl that can't live without blush-on. She is always in-love. I love her sweetness, her laugh and her aura. Andeng, as we her, is someone who you can talk with and can pour your heart out. The girly girl of them all...our little princess "andeng"...

Hannah, my dearest hannah. This bubbly girl catches my heart. Her smile melt my heart. Her tenderness let me feel at ease. This hardworking young lady is someone who can put her dreams into reality. She is my little darling angel...

These young ladies, are always a part of me. Wherever i will go, they will always be my angels and I will always their big bro... no matter what... through times... through distance...

...i love you guys...

...i love you and i swear it is true...

...i never felt strong feeling like this before... i don't know but something in you changed my life... my day is incomplete without thinking of you...
you are the air that i breath... you occupied the every inch of my damn world... you bring blue back into the sky...

...everyday as i open my eyes... i want to see the beauty of your face... hear the sound of your voice... and feel the beat of your heart, as i hold you in my arms forever...

...i know that it will take time before i let you know how i feel... but my love is so strong and i can wait...

...didipio...

...sa unang dinig ko sa lugar na didipio, inakala ko na isang pangkaraniwang libilib na lugar lamang ito na puno ng katutubong tribo… September, 2008 nang una akong makapunta sa didipio, yun ay bilang paghahanda ko sa nalalapit na pagkadestino ko… namangha ako sa ganda ng didipio, sa klima nito at sa mga tao na nakatira dito… una kong napansin sa kanila ang kaugalian nila sa “pagnganganga”, nagulat ako dahil kahit sa mga bata ay maraming gumagawa nito… napaisip ako sa tagpong ito… ano kaya ang pakiramdam ng nag-nganganga…

…October, 2007 ng madestino na ako sa didipio, sinimulan kong pag-aralan ang kultura ng mga taga-didipio… dahil sa pag-aaral na ito… namulat ako sa isang napakakulay na kultura, ang kanilang kaugalian, halimbawa na lang sa kasalan at sa pagbibigay ng huling pag-galang sa namayapa nilang mahal sa buhay ay ibang-iba sa nakaugalian ko… ang kanilang kapaligiran at ang kanilang komunidad ay tila isang bagong libro na aking binabasa… ang kanilang maburol na pamayanan ay nag-aanyaya sa mga taong gusting makipagniig sa kalikasan at makipag-isang dibdib sa malamig na simoy ng hangin… ang bawat dampi ng patak ng ulan sa tuwing umuulan sa aking balat ay tila lumilinis sa aking puso dahil sa kadalisayan nito,… ang bawat pagbulong ng hangin sa tuwing dapithapon ay tila isang piping musika na dumadaloy sa iyong diwa… sa taas ng mga burol, matatagpuan mo ang di matatawarang kapayapaan ng loob at katahimikan na gumagamot at nag-papaalis sa kapagalan ng iyong katawan… tila bang nag-aanyaya ang tunog ng lagaslas ng tubig na malayang umaagos sa ilog na ikaw ay umindak sa saliw ng musika ng kalikasan…

…isang pambihirang pag-kakataon sa akin na marating ang lugar na ito, ang maranasang makisalamuha sa mga tao duon na nagbigay sa akin ng kakaibang karanasan…

…iyan ang didipio….

...the greatest tatay in the world...

...usually, in a typical story about broken family, the father is always the cause of the wreckage or the protagonist. well in my case, my father is the main character...

...since i was a little tyke, i am used to only have my father by my side... he was the one who pinned my first academic medal... the one who bought my first toy... and the one whom i shared my first paycheck...

...many of my friends asked me why i always endear my tatay... well there is only one plain answer for that... he is the best tatay in the world... he let me feel that i am not incomplete... he worked hard so he can bring the best on us... though he was the strickest person i ever met, but also he is the sweetest person i ever encountered... when i was still in school, he was my greatest cheerer and fan when i am joining academic contests and he was so proud of me...

... i like the way he tickle me in my ears... when i am home, his constant expression is "ano gusto mong ulam", for he knows that i love to eat... he is my txtmate, my phonepal, my buddy and my companion...

...his friends and our relatives urged him to take another wife but he only replied "para ano? para kawawain mga anak ko"... to him once is enough and his children are enough for him to continue his life...

...my father loves me very much, i feel it, and the feeling is mutual, i also love him above all...

...so if you're going to ask me if who is the best tatay in the world... well with matching "taas noo", si rogger po iyon... ang tatay kong astig...

...pulilan carabao festival goes spectacular...

...May 14, 2008, the grand parade for this year's Pulilan Carabao Festival... and guess what? it went spectacular!!!! hmmm, the festival was actually may 6-15, 2008... the night before the grand parade, i roamed around the trade fair, and i got my henna tattoo that night in right my leg (a tribal design)... early next morning, the festivity spirit was on the air, the two national morning shows (unang hirit - gma and magandang umaga pilipinas - abs-cbn) was there to cover the event... almost 20 marching bands were also there to participate in the grand parade... people begun to flocked on the streets waiting for the most anticipated parade in town... at around two in the afternoon, the parade started... it was led by the local officials, festival officials and parish officials and together with them was no other than MMDA chairman bayani fernando, that delegation was followed by the different marching bands, the k9 dogs, the pinoy big brother teen edition plus evictees (housemates and guardians) and the different floats pulled by carabao, and OMG, also there was the gorgeous Iya Villania, after the bands and floats there came the true "bida" of the festival, the carabaos...

...numbers of carabaos participated in the parade together with their masters... the crowd shouted with joy, they were screaming "luhod! luhod!", urging the master to make their beast to kneel.. but the climax of the parade was all the carabaos kneeled in front of the parish church of San Isidro Labarador, the patron saint of the farmers...

... i was unlucky i have to go back to quirino immediately after the parade, i wasnt able to catch the "sun invasion in pulilan concert", i heard iya and brown man revival was there... hmmmmmm sayang!!!!

...semana santa sa pulilan...

...as usual, umuwi ako ng pulilan ng myerkules santo, pahinga ng sandali at gumala na kaagad, punta ako kila regina, tulad ng lagi kong ginagawa, duon ako nananghalian at tuwang tuwa si nanay nita dahil tumaba ako (syanga pala, si regina pala ang kasangga ko at kaututang dila, hehehehe) after nun, kwentuhan, kwentuhan at nagkasundo kami na kila jeng2x kami tatambay sa good friday dahil manunuod kami ng penitensya...

...kinabukasan ng gabi, holy thursday, nagvisita iglesias kami, pumunta kami sa simbahan sa baliuag, sa plaridel, san rafael, guiguinto at sa tatlong parish church sa pulilan (sto. cristo, miracullous medallion at san isidro), dapat daw kasi pitong simbahan para makumpleto mo, natapos kami ng alas tres na ng madaling-araw...

...good friday, kila jeng2 kami tumambay, dumating din si kare, noel, aizel, at kuya bhong, nanuod kami ng penitensya at nagkainan kami hanggang hapon, mga four na ng hapon kami umalis, six ng gabi ngkita-kita ulit kami para sa prusisyon, ang layo ng inikutan ng prusisyon napagod ako kaagad kaya ang ginawa ko, umuwi ako sa amin at duon ko inantay ang prusisyon, nanuod na lang ako, whehehehehe, wais ata ito... nung black saturday, tambay lang ako sa bahay, patay daw si Kristo kaya bawal daw mag-ingay at gumala, kinabukasan, madaling araw ako nagising para manuod ng "salubungan", after ng salubong nagkaroon ng fire works display, ang saya... after nun, tulog ulit ng kaunti at pumunta na ako sa villa remedios resort para sa easter sunday happening namin, swimming, kainan ulit at kantahan buong maghapon, after nun nagsimba ako, and guess what? nakakuha ako ng easter egg sa ilalim ng upuan na inuupuan ko, pero binigay ko sa batang katabi ko (bait ko ano)...

...ang saya sana ano, kaya lang kinabukasan kelangan ko nang bumalik sa quirino, as usual, back to work na naman... sana bakasyon ulit... hehehehehe...

...byaheng talbec...

...byahe na naman!!! this time sa tlbec kami, pumunta, gabi na kami dumating dun kaya wala gaanong nangyari kundi bonfire tapos konting shot (lasenggo talaga)...

...kinabukasan, maaraw na pero napakalamig pa rin, ang daming pine trees, ang bango ng hangin... sunod namin pinuntahan ang ilog, ang linis at ang sarap magtampisaw... bago kami maligo sa ilog, pumunta muna kami sa hanging bridge... after nun, naligo na kamim sa ilog... ang sarap ng lamig ng tubig... ang tagal kong naglunoy sa tubig... after nun, umakyat kami sa mataas na parte ng bundok at nakipanuod sa isang bahay duon ng laban ni pacquiao (hehehehehe, dumayo pa ng pakikinood)...

...napakasariwa ng hangin, at ang pinakamasarap sa lahat ay ang tinapang baboy ramo, hahahahahaha, puro pagkain talaga ang alam ko, jejejejeje...

...ilang oras lang kami na naglagi sa talbec, pero ang sarap sarap ng pakiramdam ko dahil sa sariwang sariwa ang hangin... nung pauwi na kami, dumaan kami sa simbahan ng san nicolas de tolentino, sa carangalan at sa viewers' deck sa dalton pass... ang saya talaga...